forget as quickly.
For nearly two years, I replayed arguments in my head while fixing fence, driving tractor, or lying awake before dawn. I thought of better things I could have said. Sharper things. Kinder things. I wondered whether I should have hired Ruth Ann sooner, pushed harder earlier, insisted on a joint survey the first week, called the county the first day. Anger is not loud forever. Eventually, it becomes a room in the mind where you keep walking around rearranging furniture that no longer matters.
What finally settled